The distance started to grow again, and I came out as trans. I wasn’t sure if we were growing apart because we were far apart and sort of busy with our own lives or whether he didn’t like me any more. When my dad said Jordan and his mom were coming to visit, that doubt started eating me up. I just straight up called him and told him that I needed to know how things were between us.

He said that everything was fine and he was cool with it. I guess I’ve turned into a real slut, though. Even though I was looking forward to seeing him now more than ever, I just couldn’t help resenting it a little bit that I wouldn’t have any fun time with my dad for a whole week. We’ve never gone more than a few days without sex since our first time.

One time, my dad admitted that he and my mom never fucked as often as we do. I think that was probably mostly because mom didn’t want to. She was never very affectionate. Still, I felt kind of proud of myself that I was that irresistible. Self esteem was a difficult thing for most young guys, but it’s especially hard when you are trans. You know that’s difficult for some people to accept, and you just don’t have that many guys to compare yourself to.

Mostly though, I’m just glad that I can give my dad that much pleasure. It was obvious how much he enjoys fucking me, now that we are past the taboo about fathers having sex with their sons. I see other men that I want, but as long as my dad was keeping me busy and satisfied, I just didn’t have the time, or maybe the courage, to chase them.

That has been another good thing with getting together with Jordan. He’s my cousin that I’ve known my whole life, but it was still a little bit riskier than dad. Sometimes I thought about me and my dad just being lovers and spending the rest of our lives together. I’m not sure that’s the healthiest thing for me, though. I’m young and I should be exploring, at least a little bit.

I wished Jordan lived closer. I know he likes girls, too, and it wouldn’t be like he was my second lover, or something but I know if he was closer, we would both want sex between us to be a regular thing. That’s not happening, though, so we’ll just have to make the most of the time we have.

Today, we had a few minutes alone and I wanted to have some fun, but he was worried. I told him that I tell my dad everything and it turns him on. I mean, I will tell my dad about what me and Jordan did, and I know he doesn’t care. It definitely turned him on watching us. The truth was, though, that it’s not like I’m running around with lots of other men and doing stuff to talk about. It made Jordan feel better.

I love my cousin so much! He’s a great lover. With him it was about more than just fucking. We made love. I thought he liked watching me come almost as much as he liked it himself. Don’t get me wrong, my dad was great! Nobody will ever fuck me like he does. Jordan will just lay there kissing me and fingering my hole all day, if I let him, though. I don’t think other guys will be like that.

Truth is, that I could’ve laid there sucking his cock all day, too. It was nice and long, almost too long to get it all in my mouth, but I loved the taste of him and his scent. It was so hot when he moaned and forced my head down on him. I knew I was pleasing him as much as he was pleasing me.

When he rolled me over so that I was on top and he could chow down on my bonus hole while I sucked his cock, it was the best thing in the world. He loved to make me come like that, but I wouldn’t let him because I wanted him to fuck me. That’s what he wanted, too.

His cock fit my bonus hole so perfectly. Damn! He knew how to use it, too. He could fuck for ages and make me come. He started fucking faster and moaning louder and I knew he was going to fill my hole up!